induratize;
(v) to make one's own heart hardened or resistant to someone's pleas or advances, or to the idea of love.
how the hell i will ever forget about you.
at this time, why do i always remember to your words to get me some sleep.
or how you told me to fucking move on from the kind of situations that i still haven't figure it out.
but, y'know, i am in a better place now.
haven't really figure it any out, but in a better place than before.
still remember how we kind of a slave of sad emotions?
i mostly often forget what i said to others, and vice versa.
but these;
"you are the ocean.
much mystery.
very much.
and people think you are drowning
but you are the fish living there"
somehow remind myself that i will always can smashing ass to anything.
somehow flattening me that you thought much of me yet i know i won't even fit in.
but we know how heart can change
and how we won't fit as each other's
i am sorry for what i did, what i have done, and what i didn't.
everything will makes sense in time; all those feeling
but
for now
i bid you farewell.
11 jun 2019.
12:32 am
hey~
you know it's for you.
i think i loved you.
and finally, i was the one that have this one sided love.
kataomoi, you say?